A lot of stuff has happened over the last couple of days and I just don't think I could keep my promise. I'll still take requests and I am finishing the one I have now. I just don't think I could handle the pressure of having to finish them by a certain given time right now. They will get done when they get done. Besides, those that take the longest turn out better. Not like i'm getting that many requests either. I guess it was all just a waste of energy.

I definitly do have a new state of mind right now. I thought that a certain someone in my life would always be there for me and love me, but I guess I was just too blind to see the truth that he didn't love me. I don't care if one of my closest friends liked him. I had feelings for him too. But this was his decision and I can't say anything to change his mind. I just wish I didn't have to find out through a status change on Facebook. It hurts more when that person won't even bother to tell you that they don't have feelings for you and just decide to ignore it. I would have understood. I'm used to this kind of stuff anyway. I knew I should have never hoped that something was there. It was over even before it began. Now I am only left with a shattered heart and a broken spirit. If you ever read this, I hope you are happy with her and that you guys stay together for a long time.

I'm sorry.